You tell me things , You never showed me .
" Baby I'm different , don't even think about me breaking your heart " .
Distance may be the only thing thats keeping us from being together , but honestly when we were together , you rarely made an effort to see me when your the one that had the transportation to get here with your vehicle. I'd envy the girls I know who have long distance boyfriends that come to them despite the traffic and gas and actually visit them . I was your last priority , even if you told me I wasn't , for time was limited for only you and I . You do not know how many times I've worried and thought about if you really even liked me for the past months we've been " talking ". But everytime we talk , I feel like everythings fine and I know you like me . I couldn't even call you anytime I wanted because you were always busy out and I know you wouldn't answer anyways . I had to wait for your call during the evening , that I most certainly loved doing everyday . You may have the things I wouldn't like in a boy , but heck I didn't give a whole lotta shit about your flaws , I liked you just fine. I know forsure some of your friends disliked me because I wasn't " down " to come to you , but that didn't bother me one bit . Honestly , I hated it when you went out clubbing , but I trusted you enough not to fuck around with anybody . Believe it or not we rarely fought and you loved that most because I didn't stress you . The sweet things you told me made me happy , it made my days , BUT the things you didn't show made me worry , question you and I all the time . But I let time pass and see what happens . The thing that confuses me with you the most is why you decide to break it up after half a year when you could of done it earlier before it was too much . If you knew it didn't work out , you could of done it along time ago , but its cool its the past . We may have had the stupidest thing we had together due to the fact we rarely saw each other , BUT my feelings builted up . I don't regret calling you baby / having FUN / and doing anything with you one bit . You are now the past and I think i'll stop there . I am no longer going to try to get you back because I know it won't happen . I am no longer going to wait and hope for you to tell me you want me back somehow . Its time to move on , only time will tell if we really were meant to be ( how cheesy ) , but yea , thanks you were good to me despite the other things I don't like about you. But then again , you wouldn't even give a shit about this damn blog . Glad thats off my chest , kinda.
NOW , helloo 2009 , i wonder what it has in store for me <3
